I see, that makes a lot of sense. Because the boy was never forceful or anything so you never felt bad about it but your mother's reaction was really bad. It was much worse than what really happened? The shame came with your mother's reaction? And that was all that you needed was more negativity from your mother.........

Actually, how pressured did you feel with this boy? Most SA is a power discrepancy so the victim feels powerless. Did these incidents have this affect on you?