I've been trying really to do better( Stop cutting, taking drugs). But everything is so hard and complicated. I'm moving in two months out of home in my own apartment to go to college which is three hours away from my home. It scares the living **** out of me, imnot gonna have anyone, im gonna lose all my friends and i be alone, no Therapist, Psychiatrist and the detox lady to get me off of drugs . I'm gonna have no one. BUt at the same time i want to start a new life and get my life back in hand, i messed up alot in my life and i want to get better and do better. I just have so much stress right now, im thinking about going to rehab for my amphetamine addiction. At the same time i want to move out because like that i wont hurt the people i love anymore, and i will die alone. I just really need someone right now someone who can understand me.