Reading the responses in my post and just resting today. Doing some journaling today. Saving the list of stuff to do to feel more in control of my world until tomorrow...it is not going anywhere. My goal is to be more proactive in my approach to goals. I have let my goals go for so long that I need to start over with goal setting in every area of my life. Not a bad thing since goals need to be updated in accordance with needs. But I want to let everyone know I would not be doing nearly as well today if it were not for all of your encouragement, feedback and caring. You have given me hope and encouragement. Keep it coming (I feel I kill threads whthout intending to). I am doing better but am not out of the woods yet.