i need help i been very low for months yesterday things took a turn for the even worse i thought nothing else would go wrong yet it did and i am back to haveing bad meltdowns wich i thought i might have got over after 8-10 months of haveing bad lows and 2 weeks off college helped but now back its worse it dosent help haveing a ex gf i still love get with a guy on my college cource and both say to me her by fb message as she is at a different college that she stayed yesterday night and they told me yesterday when i was next to him in college that they are a couple now he knew i still love her yet he went behind my back and did this and she was low enought to do it aswell as she was my most trusted friend and it ment i ended haveing a massive melt down and going to hurt him in college she knew i already had plenty of fights with him so why do that to me i now face being kicked out of college as i aready been warned if i fight again i am out as a few weeks back i had a fight with the guy and me going for him yesterday means i am most likely going to be kicked out 2 months before my cource ends i reli want help to get out of this low mood i been in for so many months that suicide and self harm has been on my mind nearly evethry day i just know what is makeing me see bad all the time