...That I'm bipolar. And I'm trying to convince myself that I'm not, that I'm just making this up in my head, but it's getting harder to do that... And I don't know what to do. Can someone help me? I'm young; I can't just go to a doctor without asking my mom to take me, and I don't know how the hell I'm supposed to tell her about my fears... I've tried to hide everything from her but now it's becoming impossible, and any time I let anything slip she acts like she's disgusted with me, so I'm sure you can understand why I have trouble telling her things...

But please help me, give me some advice, because this is terrible and I can't help myself anymore.