...But the thing that confuses me, is when people say they have manic episodes, they say they show it around other people, and they take it out on other people. But I can control myself most of the time, enough to get alone where I can take it out on myself... But I can't hide it all the time, once I was told to change my tights and I had a tantrum like I was a child... gah... This is all so confusing; I wish someone would reply...