Thanks Rohag,
I'm just waiting with my anxiety building with each day for that bomb to drop on me. I'm trying to give things the chance to work out but I see that things won't change or I should say they may change for the better for may a week or two but then will go back to being the same as before. I'm glad I found this forum as now I have somewhere to go to release my feelings and to hopefully be understood. When I give with my heart and time I try to give 100% but constantly being put down do to someones else's mood it becomes difficult even to be volunteering in helping others. I'm just dreading each day that goes by but I know there is always another door that can be opened but it would be hard to leave the ones I have gotten to know so well.