Hi Cyran0,

I'm sorry that you are feeling extremely sad today, I know it does help to get those feelings out even if just my posting them. I'm new to the forums so I have not had the chance to read up on your situation but I do understand how big stresses can have an effect on our depression. Though I have felt like you many times before with the feelings of life being an endless, pleasure less grind, we must keep fighting it as there are better days to come and many more doors to open with beautiful colors to see. While in our states of depression it clouds our thoughts of the pleasures that are out there yet for us to find but those pleasures and better days are out there. I'm glad that you continue on as things do get better.