I got caught up in some intense self loathing. It was escalating so much that I chose to SI after many many months of not doing this. I also added another form of SI. I felt as if I hurt myself enough I could force the emotional pain to leave. Now I'm just depressed and sort of numb.

The pain was after therapy and had to do with a deep sense of self hatred, unlovability, hopelessness.

It just all gets too hard sometimes.