thanks again for the advice... now if I could just quit drinking... it would be easier if mom in law didnt live with us and drink a case of beer a night... i, ok saying no but then she always gets the beer and always gets one for me and puts it in my hand.. she doesnt like dealing with my hubbys **** either and she thinks its good for us to drink and relax from putting up with him... i guess i could just not buy her the beer but she cooks every night and cleans all day FOR ME so I dont have to mess with it and I feel bad telling her no to hte one thing she asks for... I prayed today that God would take away the desire for alcohol and that he will make it make me sick so I never want it again... lol seriously i did... its like I want to stop drinking to prove I can, but then its there and im like what the heck.. whats a couple of beers going to hurt? its a viscious cycle... but it took me a while to quit ice, oxycodones, pot and cigerettes so if i could do all that i know i can quit a few beers... right?eeekk