I can relate to every word. Before I was medicated my mania usually took the form of private art project marathons but sometimes I got so mad at people I would have black-out rage. I just remember feeling totally justified in screaming at whoever had ticked me off.

Finding the right medication is like going on the rides at an amusement park. Some of the rides turn out to be horrible but when you find the right medication it does get better. Sleep and routine also help a lot.