Thanks (((REEG))).. I know people would probably be fine supporting me but it makes me feel worse to ask for it, so why bother if I'm just going to feel so bad about myself for being weak or whatever?

Today a girl at work disclosed that she had experienced SA in the past.

She was so casual about it.. in a conversation, we happened to somehow land on the topic of people being out of control of their behavior, and someone mentioned pedophiles, and she was just like, "Oh, yeah in the past I experienced CSA" just like it was no big deal. She was saying how even though she went through whatever she didn't hate pedophiles.. I just can't believe she just out and said she had been SA! I was like and I just turned my head. A part of me wanted to disclose but I am WAY too raw for that. Now I am all triggered again.. why does this keep coming up, all around me?

Maybe I don't want support because I honestly don't want people to try to talk to me about it. I don't want people to ask about it later, I don't want to get triggered! I have enough triggers all around me every day! I don't want to add more!

I'm doing my best but I WISH that girl hadn't said that today! Now my tics/OCD are flaring up like crazy.. I have been twitching like an insane person and repeating words to myself.. I feel like I'm going nutso.