These past couple of days are just getting worse and worse. I phoned the crisis team, they asked what I wanted from them to help me, I didn't know. They said they can't really help me. I've lost my job because of my health, I feel so low and worthless but I don't want to give up for some reason. I can't handle the pain inside me of feeling like this.

There is treatment lined up, in the months to come. My weekly group isn't on this week. It all feels too far away when I'm just layed here in bed not knowing how to cope. I've learnt distraction and coping skills, but I can't get myself out of bed to do anything, it all feels so pointless.