(((((bluebird)))))

I am so sorry for your loss. Mother's Day is hard for me too. This year will mark the 8th aniversary of my Grandma's and my sister's death. This Mother's Day is also my sister's birthday, she would have been 45, and she passed on the 18th of May. While it isn't the same as losing your Mom, it is still rough around the holidays. I like what Typo suggested about going to the favorite restraunt. One year we had a picnic in honor of Grandma and Becky. This year is going to be hard for you, but with each passing year, it does get slightly easier. The pain softens, but the memories never go away. That is what you need to hold on to, the memories. If the tears come, let them fall, allow yourself to grieve what you had, and what you didn't. Don't beat yourself up for not being able to spend the last Mother's Day with your mom. You didn't know it would be her last, and she didn't either more than likely. Even though your sisters and you don't get along, have you thought that they might be doing the same thing? Try giving them a call, just to say "I am really missing mom, how are you doing?" Sometimes things like this bring families back together. You never know until you try. Sending lots of hugs and prayers your way.