i'm not cutting...switched methods ...don't want to be all detailing about it but trying to reduce scarring...but when I do what it is that I do...its to punish. Keep myself in line..also when i'm upset and feel like just so lonely and no one will listen or can't save me or i just have to suck it up b/c it's just LIFE and people can be mean...then SI just is the only thing that burns it out of me. it's symbolic I guess.