Hi again everyone,

I can't take myself anymore. Yeah maybe the sleep thing does have something to do with it, or the pain in my back. But I can't do this anymore. My thoughts are so bad. I just got back from my pdoc and what am I supposed to tell him? I told him things are bad, but am not Suicidal, which i am not at least I don't think so.
I can't keep going like this though I know that. 4 hours of sleep in 48 hours isn't much to go on.
I took my pain pills and stuff am supposed to take when my back hurts yesterday and it didn't even let me sleep longer than an hour. i didn't sleep all night long. When it's time for another day to start it's just like great now what? When it's time for bed it's the same thing...what time am I going to be awake and for how long?
I am at that point where i don't care anymore. I feel as if I am a burden to everyone here as well as at my home. My dad and step-mom rarely talk to me anymore unless it's to ask me what time i have an appointment or something. They don't even care how things are right now. So if they don't care, why should I?
Just want people here at PC to know that I appreciate the support that you have all given me. i am sorry that I am unable to return it right now. I am sorry for being such a burden and a bore. I am sorry it's the same ol' thing with me.
Hugs everyone,
Jen