Proof

I can't tell you how much I hurt.
No, really, I can't.
I never learned how.
I'm not allowed.
I'm not even supposed to have feelings.
Feelings just get you in trouble.
Maybe I don't hurt afterall.
How can I if I'm not allowed to feel?
They always said I was wrong, selfish, bad, manipulative, just trying to get attention.
What if they were right?
I'm always wrong - they said so.
So that must mean they are right, right?
I probably imagined the whole thing.
I ought to go away and stop bothering you.
It doesn't matter anyway.
I don't matter.
I can't have feelings.
Maybe I don't even exist.

So tell me, where did these wounds come from then?
I'm showing you the proof so that maybe you will believe what I can't. Just that I hurt.

Isn't showing you that I hurt the same as telling you how I feel? I can't tell any difference.