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It is hard on us to step forward and ask for someone to take the time to get to know us instead of what others tell them. We have live so long under the threat of letting others hurt us and then having the time when those that we had learned to trust. It was like a Disney land vacation we had friends and hope. Then we had a major black out. The night mare began all over again the only thing was this time we all had memoirs of being with good people that turn their backs on us.
We don not trust easily and each time we step forward and have some one treat us that way it makes it harder for us to want to just be. Southern lady did come out called the both First Class F..... D.... heads. for being so insensitive to both us and his wife. They did not even try to sit down with us to find out who we really are they just acted out on a rumor and pushed us away.
I am sorry we are trying to over come a way of life that has lasted over 10 years and the Disney land vacation is not making it any easer on us. We are so tired of going to the people that hurt us with their words and try to get them to understand that we are not what others say but when you only have two choices of the people you can go to it makes life even harder.
This body as a whole is getting tired of moving of just surviving to get through another day just to heal enough to gain streinght to approach those that we know would not hurt us physcally. Because of the trauma and those that refuse to hear us for so long. It was not nor is it just one alter that is feed up with this life. It is the fact that we are tired of the very people that have appointed themselfs as our watch dog allowing others to hurt us but when we are hurt to the point we all say F... this world they are the first to sit on us to make us stay to endure that which is happening but choice to believe the dark souls and not allowing us to have friends in our everyday life.
sorry venting on how many things we do not have control over and how those that have made us their personal charity case can be so blind and stupid. As a scientice you would think that visual proof would be neceasarry.   
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Sometimes the only way to find freedom is to fight for it, even unto death! Because no form of abuse transcends pass it! To live free and with hope is still the greatest gift of life!- anderson .gif "Boy Angel")
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