bluebird- I am deeply sorry for your loss-

I still have my mother, although our relationship is as it has always been - shallow- I fear I won't grieve her as much as others when that time comes; Mother's Day for me is a triple edged sword (I know that isn't real)- 1) I am in a custody battle with my sister over my son- so I can't wake up on Mother's Day to 'breakfast in bed' by my adorable 7 year old. 2) My own mother is standing by my sister in keeping my son away from me- All of my siblings should have been taken away from HER ( but alas in the 70's child abuse wasn't thought about as much). 3) My greatest grief ( an what eventually led to my son being taken away) is that it has been 4 years since our last fertility treatment- I miscarried the baby mother's day weekend; It was my last chance to be a mother again.

To all out there who are motherless children and those who are childless mothers: