Anna, nobody can take away the feelings, but I think sometimes when we talk about them we can begin to deal with them better. Do you not have a therapist who you can talk to?

Well done on the cleaning, that's really good you were able to do that, I know it's hard to be motivated to do anything on those don't-want-to-get-out-of-bed days. Most days I do hardly anything! Even when I'm not depressed.

Waiting is horrible, but it's just something you need to do, I suppose. Once your treatment in the next few weeks is in place I'm sure things will begin to improve a lot.