honestly i dont believe that for a second. i dont think there is anybody out there with depression.....depending on the severity of it, who doesnt think about hurting themselves or suicide at least once in their lives. Its somethin that alot of us deal with and there are times that people lose the courage or will to keep going and that is understandable but its best to keep fighting to the end because your life can always change. anyway i hope you face your fears and go to your appointment. maybe you will feel better or learn something from this visit. good luck.