(((((Jexa))))))
I'm so glad that you came up with so many awesome coping strategies. They are so good. You are taking care of yourself. Something that should have been done before (by your parents) but was not. We have to teach ourselves how to take care of ourselves because we don't have models to learn from.
I am often surprised how nonchalantly people can talk about abuse histories because in my family it was taboo and so I find it really hard to talk about my own. So it is somewhat offsetting when someone else just talks about it. But don't think that means that you have to talk about yours. Just because someone else discloses doesn't mean that you have to. Take care of yourself.
I'm sorry that your OCD is acting up. I know you said before that your OCD was really bad before you started therapy and then you worked at them near the beginning. Are there any methods that you used then that might help reduce the compulsions now?



