Thanks Buddies,

It has been a very introspective week having arrived at this point.

It appears there is no head knowledge of the healing that has gone on for the last 10 years or so by one of the older parts. There has needed to be huge spaces of time to explain the connections. How to explain this using words is like trying to capture the wind. It is like the psyche and spirit of the part has changed due to the internal awareness of memories and healings but a part of the brain of that same part was unaware of how she got to this healing. It is taking a lot of inner dialogue to explain and make the connections. She remembers being where she is but she doesn't have the knowledge of the connections and oh yes some of the memories have had to be gone over as the brain is a little like pudding in this regard.

You see the brain and body is/are very complex. There isn't a cookie cutter pattern here. The brain operates in time and space and that space is constantly fluctuating and undulating and moving forward and around. That space has no walls or boundaries and time is the friend and foe at the same time.

Realization of the healing has been joyful but the 'how' one got there is for her missing. The intellectual connections, in order to verbalize, write, communicate etc are like a learned process. Good grief, probably this is about as clear as mud to others but it has been rather huge here, in that the remembering has usually never been a problem, nor the time, nor the space but apparently arriving somewhere and not realizing what the process was or perhaps not the process but the connecting rods, is rather disturbing.

This will take some time. I was reassured that I would have this resolved by the time I am seventy. I think that was tongue-in-cheek smile I hope. But it really does emphasize process and not perfection. No one is going anywhere in a really fast way. Numbness comes to mind around this now.

I'll be here for you and thanks for your hands of friendship reaching this direction.

Hunny