I wish I could go out clubbing and dance all night long to the impulsive addictive beat of house music. I wish I could have my old life back. Sobriety is one tough cookie, it just has to be worth it, sometime soon.

I wish I didnt feel like this. Alone, isolated, no one to turn to as everybody I seem to know can still go out and have a 'good' time. I wish people in NA wouldnt patronise me and I wish those members that swapped their addiction of choice to being addicted to NA would wake up and see it.

I wish I wasnt so bitter.

I wish I didnt feel sorry for myself.

I wish I never took that first E, that first line of coke, oh how I wish I never tasted the forbidden fruit.