siempre nada,

I have struggled with that throughout my life as well.

One thing that happened recently is allowing myself to fully express my feelings towards myself in T. No one ever wants to hear the words that were coming out of my mouth, and a lot of feelings get stuffed away. Kind of invigorating to say, " I HATE myself. I am ugly. I am stupid. I suck..." My T allowed ther words, and feelings to expressed, but he also followed with q's to understand my perspective a little better.

Knowing how I feel, my T is better-able to forsee patterns. He also reminds me that I will keep going on with my life, despite the self-hate, because there are good things that I experience too. Allow those negative feelings and thoughts to come, but don't allow yourself to become overwhelmed and stuck in that frame of mind. Because those good times will come back again. It's just a matter of time.

Hope that helps you feel a little bit better. You can hate yourself sometimes, but don't focus on that thought. Just let it go down the track, and onto the next thought and emotion/s. Very best wishes!