i feel like somethings wrong and i looked at the page on cognitive disorders and tried to be as honest with myself as possible...i dont feel like it really explains what im going through though. thanx to all for advice and support... i had a rough night last night also. im trying to figure out i can possibly live a healthy happy life. its difficult for people, but especially me to find true happiness. i sometimes wonder if ill ever find it. last night i sat and thought about things and cried really badly. i feel empty and all the bad emotions you can throw at a person.... its soo hard just trying to live a normal existence.. something is always wrong, everything is never enough. i cant escape the empty feeling no matter what i do, and soon as i start to feel empty inside my mind starts to think about that face again....through the years it has just affected me deep down to my very soul......is happiness too much to ask for?