i regret telling my old-T lots of stuff, but again - it was to do with his reaction. i have told the same stuff (in a lot more detail) to pdoc and felt very good about it.

i think one thing i need to trust myself on more is that sometimes there are things i want to talk about and i dont feel safe enough to say them yet. that is where i'm at with austin-t right now. i know i wont regret telling him one day, but i will kick myself if i told him next week because the timing wouldnt be right yet. he is pushing a lot though, it is difficult.