My own mother died last June of a suicide and this Mother's Day feels especially poignant. In the past I always looked for the prettiest and most elaborate greeting card because that was always kind of a tradition for the mothers, grandmothers, etc. in my family. This year I am angry and have tried to avoid commercials or stores because of my mother. I have a very good t and she is working with me on this and most of the time I understand my mother's illness and try to understand her problems But the little girl does come out in me sometimes and does ask 'where was she". I understand your isolation and my heart breaks for you. I loved my mother dearly despite and in spite of her problems and I will always miss her. I wish I could say it gets better but because her death is recent for me, I don't know if it will. My heart tells me life goes on as does hope. Know that you are not alone and we are here for you.