I don't know if this would help you but it does me somewhat and that is welbutrin. It seems to get rid of whatever makes me want to do that and eases the tension. I feel for you. It is a terrible thing to go through. I never really felt a high from it more of a why am I doing this and why can't I stop feeling? I'm in therapy now too. I don't know if you could stop it without help. Attekus