Thanks for the hugs, granite and Sannah

googley, Yes I think the reason I was triggered is I felt like I had to disclose, too, but then I didn't/couldn't, but by then thoughts about it were already swirling in my head.

The techniques to reduce compulsions are thinking the thoughts on purpose that make them happen, over and over until they stop making me twitch. I guess I could do that but I don't want to think the scary thoughts on purpose..

WePow, thanks for the suggestion! Maybe I will get some of that! I am trying to find more natural ways of healing.. I am trying yoga, different vitamins and minerals.. hopefully this will aid my mental health..