That feeling sucks but alot of us think about that very often. Its so hard to live at all. So living a happy life is even harder. I still dont think i fully understand why it has to be that way. Why is it sooo hard? The only thing you can do is keep moving forward......the other thing just isnt an option.... Happiness does not come easily for people like us and its sad thinking about that. Im at a point in my young life where im trying to figure out how im going to go out into the world and find some source of peace and happiness. I hope its not a hopeless journey.