I had a feeling this was coming. I've been doing good for a little while, but then I felt like I could feel my mood starting to slip downhill. I have been feeling really anxious the last couple of days. I was just doing something and I heard this voice in my head (not audibly, just like when you think thoughts to yourself) and it said "You are a horrible person" or maybe it said "I am a horrible person" I don't know which, but it really upset me and I started crying. I thought I had gotten over most of my self-esteem issues a few years ago but now I just find myself thinking you are an ugly, fat person that is of no use to anyone. I know that's not true. I mean I know my husband loves me and cares about me, but he's not here right now. I don't know. Why am I feeling this way? What is wrong with me? I just feel horrible. No one has to reply to this, I just needed to get it out and I don't feel like I can talk to anyone I actually know. Maybe my therapist but I don't see her until Wednesday afternoon this week and I needed to get it out now. No one can really make me feel better about this anyway because (no offense meant) but none of you actually know me. So, it's not like you can say "Oh, you're not a horrible person" because for all you know I am a horrible person. Oh my goodness I sound so pathetic. Why can't I just get it together?