Whenever I miss a class, I have to fill out a "self-certification of absence." Basically I have to cite which days/courses I missed and the reasons why. As some of you may know, my depression has become rather cyclical. I manage it pretty well most of the time -- and the majority of the time, I don't feel it at all -- but every few weeks or so, I have a handful of bad days where I pretty much drop off the face of the earth and stop functioning completely. I have just come out the other side of one of one of those bad spells and currently, I feel fine. I was just mentioning to someone today how good I feel, actually. It's like all of a sudden, I can breathe again. I'm used to these flare-ups by now and have realized that for the most part, all I can do is wait them out and then try to play as much catch-up as I can in terms of my work. It's stressful, but under control.

I just got an email from my student support office. One of the counsellors there keeps track of the self-certifications and noticed that I'd submitted a few that cited "mental health" as my reason for my absence. She's not my regular counsellor but we have spoken before as she's the student support "intake advisor" who more or less gets a feel for what your problems are, then recommends which counsellor would be the best fit for you in the office. She's also the one that I've gone to when my regular counsellor was away/unavailable and I needed to see someone right away. I haven't felt the need to see my regular counsellor in a few months, because aside from my depression spells, which I just ride out, I'm doing fine. It also usually takes about a week to get in to see her, by which time the depression has usually lifted on its own and I find that I go in to see her with nothing to say. I can't deal with whatever I was feeling while I was depressed unless I'm depressed AT THAT MOMENT. Maybe it's weird, but it's like I'm two totally different people. I don't even fully remember my depression when I feel well, and when I feel depressed, I only have a vague idea of what it's like to feel good. I keep a journal and looking it over, it's like a totally different person wrote those entries.

So now, this counsellor has sent an email asking if I'm feeling better, whether I'd like an appointment with her or my regular counsellor or if there's anything else the office should know/can do to help. I'm just not sure how to reply. Should I go in and see one of them? I feel like I should probably explain, since I did miss a LOT of class during that last bad spell, but at the same time it's a) not something I like to actively think about when I'm feeling well (I really prefer to just get on with my life) and b) I don't feel like there really is a whole lot to talk about. Maybe the last bad spell was some kind of hint that I should see my counsellor again but I honestly don't remember enough about what was going through my mind for it to be particularly helpful now. I'm not sure what I should do. Any thoughts?