Glad to hear your feeling better again, floating. JMO, but I think you
should go in and 'touch base' with your counsellor.
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As some of you may know, my depression has become rather cyclical. I manage it pretty well most of the time -- and the majority of the time, I don't feel it at all -- but every few weeks or so, I have a handful of bad days where I pretty much drop off the face of the earth and stop functioning completely. I have just come out the other side of one of one of those bad spells and currently, I feel fine.
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Do you have a Pdoc? Do they know about the short, cyclical nature of your depression?
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I'm used to these flare-ups by now and have realized that for the most part, all I can do is wait them out and then try to play as much catch-up as I can in terms of my work. It's stressful, but under control.
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Is it really 'under control' or is it just something you have to deal with?? It sounds like it's really stressful constantly having to play 'catch up' all the time. Do you think the stress of catching up work you missed could possibly be wearing you out which leads to another depressive bout?!
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Originally Posted by justfloating
I haven't felt the need to see my regular counsellor in a few months, because aside from my depression spells, which I just ride out, I'm doing fine. It also usually takes about a week to get in to see her, by which time the depression has usually lifted on its own and I find that I go in to see her with nothing to say. I can't deal with whatever I was feeling while I was depressed unless I'm depressed AT THAT MOMENT. Maybe it's weird, but it's like I'm two totally different people. I don't even fully remember my depression when I feel well, and when I feel depressed, I only have a vague idea of what it's like to feel good. I keep a journal and looking it over, it's like a totally different person wrote those entries.
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Maybe you could explain this to T and get her feedback? Perhaps she has strategies for preventing the crashes, or can give you a regular session so that you don't have to wait a week or so when you need her?
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I feel like I should probably explain, since I did miss a LOT of class during that last bad spell, but at the same time it's a) not something I like to actively think about when I'm feeling well (I really prefer to just get on with my life) and b) I don't feel like there really is a whole lot to talk about.
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I know you want to get on with your life, but it sounds like this is really interfering with your ability to do just that.
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Maybe the last bad spell was some kind of hint that I should see my counsellor again but I honestly don't remember enough about what was going through my mind for it to be particularly helpful now. I'm not sure what I should do. Any thoughts?
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You mentioned earlier about a journal, could you bring that to remind you of how bad you feel when depressed??
Floating. Hope this helps. If not, ignore me!
*Willow*