(((((Moosetracks)))))

What a terrible thing to be happening to you! I am so very sorry. For now, I wouldn't do anything with the gifts except keep them in that drawer. I'm sure the T you are seeing tomorrow will help you decide what to do with them. I don't think now is the time for a letter, either.

I know this must be so painful, so you don't have to answer questions, but was this a romantic relationship? What reason did the T give you for allowing weekly phone calls for 7 years? I'm not sure if that falls under the "no contact" outside of therapy rule after so long or not. But, at the very least, it doesn't sound ethical. T's "I got busy" sounds like a very weak excuse.

Please stay safe until you see the T tomorrow! Do you have any family or friends to share this with? You can post more here; there are many who will support you into the night. If you have to check into a hospital, please do that. I hope it's all right to give you some hugs.