Are you seeing a therapist Kaika? Maybe you could talk to someone about these feelings of anxiety you are having?
I feel the same way about posting here, it's easy because I don't know anyone here in real life. That's why it's easier for me to talk to my therapist too because I don't see her out in the real world, only at our appointments. Plus, she doesn't judge she just listens.
The college process can certainly be overwhelming (especially financial aid!) try to take it one step at a time and not stress too much (though I know that is easier said than done!). Don't feel bad or guilty for feeling this way, it is normal. Don't be so hard on yourself. Everyone at PC is here for you