Hi Marjan,
Thanks, yes. I now actually think to look for a place next week. I cannot live like this. My friend is so preoccupied with herself and she has no idea about what I am going through. She is kind in that she is offering me a place to stay but shows no empathy. She actually told me yesterday that if someone my age is not married then there is something wrong with them. It was particularily hurtful as she knows how my ex proposed, I have a dress etc and he never set a wedding date and abused me. I find her cold and heartless and I cannot be around people like that now. This evening I had dinner with them - her husband made some salad and warmed some rice. At the end of the meal she was sitting looking at paper work. She asked me to do the dishes and clear up. I could not believe it. I mean - I do not mind doing it but her attitude... Especially when she cooked yesterday and I did all the washing up. I dont know. I think she thinks I am on the remit of helper for her and disregarding my needs. Every morning she knocks on my door and opens it. I have to find my own place.

About the kids dvds: I am strongly against it. I think it damages their brain. Her baby is only 8 months old and he spends more time in front of the tv than in front of people. I am sorry for your nephew. Maybe try to talk to your sister? I guess its the easy option for parents. Kids are quiet and they are free. To me - this is not what parenthood is about....

My friend force feeds her baby. He cries and she sticks food in his mouth.. Its so horrible to watch! I think its such a cheap manipulation...

Anyway - enough of me venting. How are you??