Hi I am new here but if I don't talk to someone I am going to go insane.

I suffer from Bipolar disease. I am seeing a PDOC for meds. I was doing ok. Better than Ok for a while but this last month has been a strain.

My husband of 5 yrs has battles alcoholism, Major depression, anitexy disorder, asthama and now was diagonosed with Early Onset Parkinsons disease. I have stuck by him through the humiliation of being with a drunk, the many hospital stays for pnuemonia, and the time 2 years ago when he came home and announced that he wanted to kill himself. He was hospitalized. I went every day to see him. I have been supportive through it all but this last diagnosis has got me thinking that I can't handle this anymore.

I feel like the worse person in the world. I made the vow for better or worse why can't I keep it? I hate myself but I just want to say enough.

What is wrong with me?