Sure, I often think maybe I've just made this all up. Even get paranoid to the point where I'm certain my doctors know I made it up too and I'm not taking real medications, but placebos, just because I'm silly enough to make up some mental disorder. Other times, I'm certain I have no disorder at all.

And then there are the other times, the times where I have, I admit, used the diagnosis, or more likely, the common perceptions of the diagnosis, to my advantage, not because I needed it, but because I could. It's terrible, I know this mentally, but I figure, if I have to be mentally ill, I may as well put that label to good use.