View Single Post
 
Old May 02, 2010, 11:54 PM
BrokenNBeautiful's Avatar
BrokenNBeautiful BrokenNBeautiful is offline
Mental Wellness Mensch
 
Member Since: Apr 2009
Location: I live with myself. Because that is all I can depend on. Everthing around me changes.
Posts: 3,439
I see a therapist online via email and somtimes chat and this has worked for me cause I cannot find any t's in my city that accept my insurance, do not have money, and Medicaid is no longer covering psychologists in CA.

Anyway, for a year now, I've been seeing B., this woman from Canada. I really really liked her and was starting to do some good work with her.

Then last week, without a warning or an explanation whatsoever, she blocked my email. I asked other t's there on the site what was going on; I panicked. Usually I can get a hold of her if she's away, by email, but she fixed it so that I could'nt email her.

No one on the site knew anything. Except, "Well, I see she placed her status on "inactive"." I asked them why and they said, "We don't know why she did that."

I told the webmaster about it and he did not talk to B. at all, just checked to see if she had blocked me or not and he got back to me, saying, "She didn't block you but she did deactivate her account."

I asked why and he said, "I don't know."

Then tonight, I got an email from t. (B.) saying how am I doing, as if nothing happened.

Like no one even apologized for how it made me feel; I had told them I was bewildered and frightened and hurt.

I felt like they didn't even care.

No one talked to her, no one could explain what was wrong, NO ONE.

I emailed her back ( I could finally) and said, "I thought you blocked me, I thought you didn't want to see me anymore. It hurt. I hope I misunderstood."

This happens of course right in the middle of something else (see "dental work" in Health Support )

ty,

Billi
__________________
The idea of a soul mate is an ILLUSION. In reality, we must learn to be our own best friend/partner. Then if love comes to us, we will already be whole. All that love can do, at that point, is enhance our wholeness!