For me it feels like relapses will be a part of my life forever.....so idk if that's wrong. I can't go for more then a month or so lately.....

That's cute how many cats do you have? I'm more of a dog person, but isn't it funny how we consider how our animals feel before how WE feel??? I have a guinea pig, and sometimes I think "she's watching me cut, what is she thinking?!" Or a few times I have held her when I was crying....do you think such innocent animals know we are in pain?! I don't know.....interesting though.