Fire, do you mean sort of like, knowing that your experiences/thoughts are not actually rational and yet adhering to them anyway? I get that. I know something is totally nuts, but I feel compelled to go with it anyways. Like I'll think there are important people spying on me and yet know, rationally, at the same time there are not and still act like they are (just in case!).

I also get where I am so impulsive, that while I know something is irrational, by the time I realize what I'm doing, I've already done it!