i must say i truly admire the courage it takes to make this step. that's awesome. i would also like to add that you're NOT worthless in the least bit. i encourage you to stick with this. i'm telling you first hand that the more we focus on positive thinking the more of a difference it WILL make in our lives. i know this to be a fact because i myself have done it. not only that, but i have also seen it work for others.

please don't be discouraged. when people suffer from depression it's what we're familiar with. so to step out of the norm of things may feel a bit uncomfortable for a little while. please take heart it won't always be the case. i choose to look at it like someone who has taken up working out. it takes time to build those muscles up. it just isn't going to happen overnight, and in most cases there's going to be some pain associated with it at least for a little while.

i would love to encourage you to stick with it. you're doing great, and have taken a great step towards self recovery. this is very admirable. hang in there hon. take care