Will I get into trouble for posting this?
[b]Is it wrong to care?
Am I really incorrect for asking for clarification of a problem?
Why do I feel like I'm not a problem? Should I feel that I am, that I am wrong, always wrong? Especially... when so many ppl say they understand me and my problems and yet... though they tell me otherwise, if I don't act like I'm always wrong, then am I wrong in that also?
Is there no right answer, for anything?
I am in such turmoil.
Supposed to be on bedrest? Too much pain. Too much sadness. Too much stress ... from caring.... and other garbage.
If I didn't care, I wouldn't care.. it wouldn't matter. nothing would matter maybe nothing really does matter.. maybe others think it does and it really doesn't?
Nothing I say or think is correct... even this? said the cretan.
I'm not allowed to hurt. That would denote selfishness?
This stuff is what makes me crazy.
and..A big issue and I can't work through it here... because it involves "here"
how is that sane?
what would I know about normal?
the darkness pursues me... maybe this time... I will fully succumb.