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Life is such a mixture of full quarters. We got to see some of our Papa and Mama Bears. Some we where able to spend time with and enjoy our selfs with. But others just stopped by to say “HI” then walk away. I guess they thought we would see them and not need them no more.
Our golden cage is the lie that we only need friendship in the spiritual world. I guess to them that if one has so many in one’s head then we do not need anyone in real life.
This life is hell, Each time we try to make friends with those out side of us. It turns out the same she will talk with you then turn her back. Ya right.
In the past 10 years we tried to find someone to be with and hope to have a real family. Now we know that is only a fantasy because all those that clam to be with me never took custody of our son so we no longer had to deal with the treat of him being sent to hell on earth.
So what if we lived on hell on earth all these years.
No matter what we did what we did for a fate worst then death for our son. But now that he is free. We are now trying to find a way to find peace of what is and what will never be.
We are a true magnet we have all emotions flowing throw us. The Good , the Bad, The Ugly.
Hope is for ever internal, It just does not always feel that way. We are many, Yet we are so alone at times for real friends and family. But We will have to wait and see.
We thought wrong, we thought that if we could get a few to accept us that it would not feel so lonely but in troth we feel even more lonely but for those here Thank You for being here. The Lost and the Brave Of PC World.
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Sometimes the only way to find freedom is to fight for it, even unto death! Because no form of abuse transcends pass it! To live free and with hope is still the greatest gift of life!- anderson .gif "Boy Angel")
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