I just can't be helped.

I am on 37.5 mg of effexor and it is causing so many side effects and making my depression and anxiety worse but my doc doesn't think so.

I am EXTREMELY sensitive to ALL meds.

I have dry mouth, somewhat blurred vision, my pulse is magnified like a million times like it is going to explode, jittery, shaking, wired feeling, anxiety, more depressed, unmotivated, nauseous, no appetite, no desire to do anything, completely hopeless, just feeling off.

I can't live with this impending doom and depression and anxiety about aging and dying.

I am so in awe of these people who live effortlessly because they have the love and support and feel secure and safe.

I feel so in danger and insecure every second. My husband hitting me took it all away and now I have nothing. My kids should have been with me all the time but the judge we have was messed up and gave him shared custody.

I have two small children, I cannot be this way. I am working with the top docs and nothing helps me.

All these therapies are too long. My kids are the ones suffering the most.
It's not fair.

My psychiatrist has put me on so many different drugs which ALL made me worse with bad side effects, including heightened anxiety and I feel that all these trials just made me worse. I wasn't this bad when I started.

Now they want to do ECT or RTMS and I am more terrified now of those procedures and there is always what if those don't work??

I am just going downhill more and more.

There has to be something to help me. I am so worried that I will be this way always. I just don't see any hope.