Okay billi,

Now I have a better understanding of what you were talking about.

Personally, I would have a real hard time dealing with a T online. Definitely look in the yellow pages (or your county site online) to find out local resources. In Ventura Co., I was uninsured, but did go to see a T weekly about 20 miles away from where I lived. I couldn't drive for a couple of years, but did take a bus there. County mental health fees are based upon a sliding scale of your income. They are very helpful. Please look into it!

I'm not saying that the T you've been working with is a yahoo, but imo, it would be incredibly difficult to get a lot of issues covered online. They aren't aware of anything you do or say, if they aren't right in the room with you. A lot of stuff could easily be skipped, even when you aren't trying to hide. Expressions on your face, that you aren't aware of, just one small example.

Very best wishes to you, billi. Please check out your county for assistance asap!