(((dps)))

i am so sorry you are hurting. no person, no child should ever have been hurt like you have been. it is completely wrong. i admire you for your strength. it has taken a lot for you to survive, but there is a reason you did. you have the power of resilience and creativity. you have very special gifts and talents to offer this world. all of you. i am happy you are still here with us as a survivor.

i wish you strength and power in these dark times. your words are so poetic, and i want to thank you for sharing them. your pain is so real. i think sharing those feelings is very important. sharing our lives with friends can help us feel less alone, share the grief. and share the happiness too! healing is such a difficult process, but i believe in you and i believe you can get through this, one day at a time. there is some very special light deep inside of you that keeps you going, and i believe it will always be there. take care of yourself the best you can. i am so sorry the memories have been haunting you. you are better than them, though. you are wonderful and you deserve to feel peace.

life is hard, but we are not alone. we are often hurt, but we can also feel happiness. i believe life has many cycles... and even though now seems so terrible, i think it is a sign that things will get better. it will be ok eventually. i take that as my motto. (and on some days... i only have the heart to say, "it will be ok eventually, maybe..." and i think that's ok too). but hold on to your hope, at least a little. things can get better. you can do it. you have survived so many terrible things, and you made it through! you are strong and brilliant.

i will send you positive energy.
i am glad you have found this community for support.