Billi,

Big hugs to you dear sweet one......I am glad that you are safe, and would like for you to stay that way......safety first, babe

I stick to the general theme of what others have said......you only need ONE good T. For whatever reasons that this T has ceased sessions, it does NOT reflect on you. Maybe this T felt that they could not help you, and so did the professional thing of ending the sessions.......you would not want a T that only treated you half way. You want a T who is as interested in your recovery as you are. This might sound terribly contrite, but when one door closes, another opens......always. If a T is going to shy away from the more confrontational aspects of BPD, then you don't want them treating you. It is counterproductive.

I was very fortunate to have a state provided T in my early years, who had the choice of taking me on as a patient when in hospital. She saw me at my absolute worst. No-one else wanted to come near me. I still made life absolute hell for her, but she persevered because she BELIEVED she could help me, and she did. After 7 years she saved my life. I have also had my fair share of shrinks since who wouldn't touch me with a ten foot pole....

And I say to them......"Your loss buddy!!!!"...

All things come and go and wax and wane......KNOW that this is not abandonment dear one, this is REBIRTH.....the beginning of something different, better.....out with the old and in with the new.

Take good care of your precious self,

Michah