Hi Muse

I'm sorry to hear that your day wasn't good for you. I hope that you are feeling better by the time you read this.

My day really has lingered, meaning it was long due to the way I was feeling.

That deep dark hole that I once knew, is coming back! Only difference this time is I know it is here and I want to try to do something about it. I've had many many intrusive thoughts the past few days about ending it, and Have had past attempts by overdosage, so tonight I decided that until i feel better, I'm giving my medication to my mental health support worker just in case i get impulsive. This is a big change for me, but I'm trying my best to hang on right now and I'm giving it my all!

thanks for listening to me ramble. If you need to talk , please don't hestitate to contact me.